On a backwards slid

OK I have not blog in awhile. That's because I fell off the wagon. The holidays really and truly got to me. Since we are going to a New Years eve party I decided I will start fresh in the new year. Plus my health insurance is changing. I want to join a gym and get the money back from my insurance. So I will start a fresh in January. I will always be honest with you where I stand with my eating issues. One day last week I ate way to much and my acid reflux really acted up. So I knew that day I went way over board. I will you posted of my trials.

Popcorn

Ok I did not get on the scale today. Not sure why I am afraid to, I guess I just don't want to see that it has not moved. Food, why is it such a nightmare for us. The one snack food I don't feel guilty about is popcorn. I really think I go over board on that. I eat a big bowl of it. I make it myself and use "I Cant Believe Its Not Butter" spray. Then I use sea salt. Boy is that good. I have to say the only thing I have really wanted to eat was wings with blue cheese. But I have been good and have stayed away.

OH NO

Well all I can say is thank God that holiday is over. I ate a little of all my favorite foods this past weekend. I also ate some crackers and some chips. I am not proud of that. Now I am really trying to get back on track. My reflux has been acting up. That is not a good sign for my healthy eating. This is really the hard part for me. If it was only me over the holiday I would not have cook half the things I did. I have a hard time indulging a little bit. I know if this is to be a life time change then I need to learn how to indulge the right way once in awhile. Another thing that is hard now is that money is tight. It makes it hard to buy the good foods. For example if I want pasta the multi grain pasta cost more then the regular pasta. The leaner the hamburger the more it cost. You know with the high cost of health care you would think that healthy foods should be less expensive. If you want to eat the junk food that should cost the most. Just a thought!

Thanksgiving Week

I have to admit I am a little nervous about turkey day. I know I will eat more then I really should. I am just going to try and fill up on the healthy things first then I should eat less of the unhealthy foods. I am cooking so I will be using the most healthy ingredients I can to make the meal. But I will be making pies. My most weakness is the stuffing. Most years I make a ton. When I say a ton I mean it. I would stuff the turkey plus make a dutch oven fill of extra. This year I am cutting way back. The less left over the less I will have to fight myself not to eat. The next big battle will be Christmas and all that brings.

Fiber

I have been reading everything I can on weight lose and healthy eating. The one thing they all say is eat alot of fiber. Fiber fills you up and some of the fiber calories get flushed right out of your body. A friend of mine told me she would drink a glass of a fiber drink when she was hungry to hold her over till dinner. Now I understand!

I do have to say that yesterday my husband got out a box of cheese its. My hand started to go for the box. Boy I grabbed it back and said to myself WHAT are you doing. That is the last thing I want to eat. Old habits die hard. I just hope I am making good ones now.

I am a little tried of salad for lunch. So the last few days I have had soup.

I put a link up for foods that our high in fiber. Its the one bella on line.

Hard day

Yesterday was a hard day. I was very hungry. I found myself craving candy. The Halloween candy from my son is still sitting on the kitchen table. But I stuck to my guns and did not eat any candy or junk food. I think part of the problem is that I wasn't eating my normal breakfast. I usually eat oatmeal with blueberries and flax seed. Which is a very high in fiber meal. So today I started my day off right. I have lost 17lbs so far. To most people they would say wow good job. To me I wish it was more. It just seems to go so slow. When you gain weight it seems its all of sudden there.

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The Weighing Game: The words of a child

The Weighing Game: The words of a child

The words of a child

My son said to me I don't understand how people can not quit smoking. Just say I am not going to smoke again. I tried to explain to him it is not that easy. I quit about 4 times. The last time I quit was 12 years ago and have never smoke since. I decided to take my sons words and use them for over eating. Just don't eat that. The food that is junk. Just say no! I not sure if that will work for me but I am trying. My biggest down fall this past week was my husbands birthday. Had a few to many drinks one night and the next night we had Chinese food. I did not know how many calories are in that. Well we learn from our mistakes. Of course the day after that I did take a 30 minute walk. I had to burn some calories. I read somewhere about whether of not you should blog about your trying to lose weight. I think its a good idea. It keeps you going. But as for one thing that the person didn't like was that people put in their two cents about what they thought she was doing wrong. I can not answer to that cause as of today no one has read my post. I just hope someday the person that this might help gets a chance to see my blog. I will put my mistakes down. I have loss a couple more pounds.

Slow

I been very frustrated with how things are coming along. I am determined to continue my weight loss journey. I want to join a gym but money is really tight. I might go out and get a DVD. Now that we are back standard time, it might be easier to get up earlier to exercise. I went out to lunch with my daughter and did well in my ordering. Of course it was a salad with grilled chicken. I do use sparkpeople to track the foods I eat. This has been going very very slow. What is keeping me going is that I know I am eating healthier then ever before. Not sure about any weight loss this week. Trying not to weigh myself that often. My pants do feel a little loser. Still my biggest down falls are not exercising and I like to drink a couple glasses of wine at night.

Slow

I don't think the scale moved at all this week. Some times I just want to pick the thing up and throw it out the front door. Of course there have been times I just want to give it a big hug. My worst enemy is wine. I like to drink a couple of glasses at least three times a week. I do drink red so that is better than white. Well at least they say you should lose weight slowly. What I really need to do is exercise. I havent gotten there yet. My head says yes but my body says no. I need to lift weights but havent start thay yet either. Maybe this will be the week. I still like to sit on the couch and watch tv. I am not going to tear my self up over this. I am still eating healthier than I ever have. I am taking this slow. I will try and lift weights twice this week. Maybe walk for 15 mintues a couple of days this week.

Week Three

I made it through another week! I am trying to take this slow and steady. I want to say I am eating healthy not dieting. But I still want to step on the scale every day. I am fighting myself to stay off of it. Then of course I made the mistake of trying on pants a size smaller. They were able to be button but did my stomach really hang over the top. If anything makes you feel like a fat slob is wearing pants that are alittle to tight. Of course I took them off fold them back up and put them away. ( I will wait a couple more weeks to try again) I want to make this a life time change and hope writing my thoughts down everyweek will help with my journey. I do keep a log of what I eat everyday. Well I least I try to write it all down. One thing I try and do is eat a salad everyday. To be honest I do it Mon-Friday. Not always during the weekends. I really havent craved any sweets or chips. Which is big surprise to me. I eat breakfast every morning. I mostly eat oatmeal. Some mornings I will eat eggs and turkey bacon. Which my family says is like eating rubber. I like the turkey bacon. My lunch is mostly salads. Dinner is meat and vegatables. I know I should eat white potatoes but I only been eating them baked. That is not everynight. I have been drinking mostly water. I put lime in my water for favor. No diet sodas! That is big one for me. Well I will check in again next week.

Week Two

Well so far so good. I started the day with some light exercise. When I say light I mean light. I walked in place for about 15 minutes. Then did 10 regular sit ups 10 twist sit ups each side. I believe I burned a whopping 96 calories. I know this is better then not doing any at all. At my age I am afraid to start doing to much to fast. I have been doing a lot of reading. I been reading Shape and Prevention. I am still fighting the urge to get on the scale everyday. Which I know from past experience that the scale is not a good friend everyday. I have been eating a lot of salads dark green salads. I did do a major mess up. I ate ribs not knowing how many calories they had. I only had 3 of the small ends. Well we learn from our mistakes. I starting using flax seed also. There does not seem to be a taste to them. Ok I will check in again next week unless something comes up that I want to talk about.

Week one

Well I started trying to eat healthy. Its been a full week and I haven't passed out from hunger. For the past 4 weeks I have cut out snacks. That has made a difference. I don't really crave them now. I have been eating a protein breakfast. I feel that makes a big difference. I try to eat one salad a day. If not a salad then alot of vegetables. For some reason when ever I try to eat better I like to weigh my self alot! I really have to fight the urge to get on the scale twice a day. I do need to lose weight. I want to lose at least 50lbs. I feel if I make this public it will help me to keep going. I will keep up to date on my progress bad or good.