On a backwards slid

OK I have not blog in awhile. That's because I fell off the wagon. The holidays really and truly got to me. Since we are going to a New Years eve party I decided I will start fresh in the new year. Plus my health insurance is changing. I want to join a gym and get the money back from my insurance. So I will start a fresh in January. I will always be honest with you where I stand with my eating issues. One day last week I ate way to much and my acid reflux really acted up. So I knew that day I went way over board. I will you posted of my trials.

Popcorn

Ok I did not get on the scale today. Not sure why I am afraid to, I guess I just don't want to see that it has not moved. Food, why is it such a nightmare for us. The one snack food I don't feel guilty about is popcorn. I really think I go over board on that. I eat a big bowl of it. I make it myself and use "I Cant Believe Its Not Butter" spray. Then I use sea salt. Boy is that good. I have to say the only thing I have really wanted to eat was wings with blue cheese. But I have been good and have stayed away.

OH NO

Well all I can say is thank God that holiday is over. I ate a little of all my favorite foods this past weekend. I also ate some crackers and some chips. I am not proud of that. Now I am really trying to get back on track. My reflux has been acting up. That is not a good sign for my healthy eating. This is really the hard part for me. If it was only me over the holiday I would not have cook half the things I did. I have a hard time indulging a little bit. I know if this is to be a life time change then I need to learn how to indulge the right way once in awhile. Another thing that is hard now is that money is tight. It makes it hard to buy the good foods. For example if I want pasta the multi grain pasta cost more then the regular pasta. The leaner the hamburger the more it cost. You know with the high cost of health care you would think that healthy foods should be less expensive. If you want to eat the junk food that should cost the most. Just a thought!