Clever Girl Goes Blog: Jupiter Freedom Giveaway.

Clever Girl Goes Blog: Jupiter Freedom Giveaway.

clever girl

I was just reading clever girl goes blog which I love to read. She is having a give away for Jupiter Freedom site. They make these cute bags that are great for when you go to the gym. You should check out both sites. http://www.clevergirlgoesblog.com/2009/07/jupiter-freedom-giveaway.html http://www.jupiterfreedom.com/collection-armbags.html.

Today Show

This morning as I was watching the Today Show a story came on about a women who lost 410lbs with out surgery. After not being able to breath on her on because of her weight she decided it was time to get healthy. She went to therapy to learn what her food triggers were and she started walking. They say when you start to exercise you will eat better. I think my mind is on the wrong track. When I exercise I think well I can eat because I burned 300 calories today. I wont give up my exercise because I know I am still helping my bones and muscles. Since I have reached menopause, I know this is important. This is also suppose to help the hot flashes. I wonder how bad they really would be if I didn't exercise, cause they are bad.



Back to the women who lost all that weight. She is one women to admire. I just wonder if something will happen and that will be my breaking point.

At least this week money is tight so no one in the house is eating any junk food.

Swishandwanky

I just visited swishandwanky blog and she is having a give away from "Dandi". They do table coverings pot holder and aprons etc. Please visit her site and check her out I believe you will find it a pleasure to read!! http://swishandswanky.blogspot.com/

Good news bad news

Well I had my yearly woman check up. Good news didn't gain any weight in a years time. Bad news didn't lose any weight in a years time. Why does it seem when everything seems to be going wrong in your life you blame it on your weight. Its like I don't have a good job or not many friends because I am overweight. The more things go wrong the more you feel the need to feed the depression. I am not one to really talk about what is going on in my life, but at least here no one knows me and I can complain. As I'm typing this my life song in on the radio. "Stop and Stare" If you listen to the words its how I feel my life is going.

I try to go the way that would be the best for my family and myself and some how there is a road block or fork in the road. It seems I take the wrong detour. Don't get me wrong we are not living in the streets. We have a small two bedroom home. That is not worth anything. We have the neighbors from hell. For example last night the son-in-law shot a golf ball in our yard just missing my kitchen window. In the summer you know it doesn't get dark till after 9pm. Well that's when they decide to mow their lawn. The father likes to rev his motorcycle in his empty aluminium shed. You can just imagine what that sounds like.

My husband has not gotten a raise in over two years. I work for a nonprofit company. My work week is only 35 hours. Dont even get me started on health insurance.

Now to sum this all up I dont know if I am over weight because I am depressed or I am depressed because I am over weight!

Tried !!

I am feel that nothing I do will work. I decided if I don't start losing weight soon, I will go see if I can get the band. I girl I use to work with got one. She has had some problems with it but she has lost 70 lbs. I need to lose between 70 and 80 lbs. I go to the gym at least 5 times a week. I lift weights and do the bike or ski machine. I am trying to get back to the trend mill. Sometimes I think the more I work out the more I eat.

I can feel the difference in my muscles. My legs the most. Several people have told my arms look better. I just love that full stomach feeling. Also if I know I have food in my drawer at work and I am not hungry I will still eat it because its there.

So I will give myself a month and see what happens. Then I will really consider getting the band.

My Foot

Well I finally had to go to the doctors about my foot. I have tendonises in my foot. The doctor wrapped it and said dont use the tread mill till it heals. Which could be six weeks. I have been doing good on going to the gym. I go about five times a week. I have not lost any weight but I do feel a little more fit. I am still fare from being out of breath going up two flights of steps. I think when I can do that I will be very very happy. I think I might also start going some days twice a day. I will start off at first just two nights a week and see how I feel. I want to go into things just a bit to fast and then I get hurt. Which in the long run throws you back several weeks.