Good news bad news

Well I had my yearly woman check up. Good news didn't gain any weight in a years time. Bad news didn't lose any weight in a years time. Why does it seem when everything seems to be going wrong in your life you blame it on your weight. Its like I don't have a good job or not many friends because I am overweight. The more things go wrong the more you feel the need to feed the depression. I am not one to really talk about what is going on in my life, but at least here no one knows me and I can complain. As I'm typing this my life song in on the radio. "Stop and Stare" If you listen to the words its how I feel my life is going.

I try to go the way that would be the best for my family and myself and some how there is a road block or fork in the road. It seems I take the wrong detour. Don't get me wrong we are not living in the streets. We have a small two bedroom home. That is not worth anything. We have the neighbors from hell. For example last night the son-in-law shot a golf ball in our yard just missing my kitchen window. In the summer you know it doesn't get dark till after 9pm. Well that's when they decide to mow their lawn. The father likes to rev his motorcycle in his empty aluminium shed. You can just imagine what that sounds like.

My husband has not gotten a raise in over two years. I work for a nonprofit company. My work week is only 35 hours. Dont even get me started on health insurance.

Now to sum this all up I dont know if I am over weight because I am depressed or I am depressed because I am over weight!